Nut Case

I think I need some help with my brain, but Im at the explosion point. There is a country song something like I feel. I hate my job, I hate my life, but I cant say I hate my wife because she is the only bright spot I have. All my good buddies live 4 1/2 hours away and it is just not economical to just trout down there everytime I get home sick. Have you ever been at a point where you feel this way inside? You cant find pleasure in a damn thing you do and dont really care if you do anything at all. Cinda said I was depressed and I guess I am, but SHIT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Im bored. Some people find confort in Jesus, but I have prayed and begged to find reason to being up here in this forsaken country and never get an answer, so I have given up on that stuff. I have this nice house that I could not sale if I had to right now. I just dont know, I just dont know. WTF lets go home and start the same shirt tomorrow. Bye