Ray of Hope

it is amazing what you can look forward to and have a ray of hope that your situation might get better. I had a person call me this past Wednesday and was wanting to know if I would be interested in a Plant Managers job. The person currently in this position is going back to England and they need someone. Only problem with the job is, it is located in Statesville rather than where I would want it to be, but to get out from under the ultra micro management, Vann Vann the window profile Man, and all the bad history here would be a blessing. Maybe I could actually run my job again as Im suppose to. Well, at least it has given me something to look forward. I would love for all readers to come sit in this chair for one month. You would find yourself going to the bathroom to shit at least 3 times a day because that is about as exciting as it gets. You will pace the floor saying I need to do this or I need to do that, but knowing you have to go ask for everything you do and if it does not happen then so what, well, it really motivates you. Hope this new thing has something promising.

Nut Case

I think I need some help with my brain, but Im at the explosion point. There is a country song something like I feel. I hate my job, I hate my life, but I cant say I hate my wife because she is the only bright spot I have. All my good buddies live 4 1/2 hours away and it is just not economical to just trout down there everytime I get home sick. Have you ever been at a point where you feel this way inside? You cant find pleasure in a damn thing you do and dont really care if you do anything at all. Cinda said I was depressed and I guess I am, but SHIT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Im bored. Some people find confort in Jesus, but I have prayed and begged to find reason to being up here in this forsaken country and never get an answer, so I have given up on that stuff. I have this nice house that I could not sale if I had to right now. I just dont know, I just dont know. WTF lets go home and start the same shirt tomorrow. Bye

Does Not Matter

Does it matter what we think anymore or want? We have a dumb ass- half black- half ass- for president of the United States. This ass whip is going to ram a Socialized Health Care system down our throats, he is going to increase energy cost by 45% so we can be green while the rest of the world says fuck you Obama and your green ass. He does not listen to the majority of what Americans think, oh excuse me for thinking out of the box, he is a minority so it does not matter what the majority wants, it is all about me and if I dont get it I will play the black trump card and shout America is racial. Well it does not matter, because since the beginning of time there has been discrimination and everything in our world is not equal. Its called survival of the fitest and food chain. I sound like a racial ass hole on the blog and Im sure if fat ass Ophra got this she would have a field day, but in reality I am not. Im a strong believer in the American way which is a true Democratic Society. Majority rules, you live by the laws of the land set forth by your forefathers, but thats what I truley believe in TOTAL EQUALITY damn it, no matter of color, it is the stongest and smartest will prevail. If you cant cut the mustard then you just dont get to eat. We can not continue to feed the country with tax dollars, supply free medical care, and pay for you to have babies and go on Murray. We need to bring industry back into the country and say piss on you and your global economy. We have more people standing in line with there hand out that we do working (which is not their fault they are just victim of the situation) it is our leaders who have sold us down the road for the mighty $$$$ and the stock holders.

Ok Im off my political soap box now, but we need people in office with a set of balls and hair on their ass and send the lawyers to a long vacation in South America for about 50 years.

Bestest Vacation

Just got back in from Pawleys Island where Cinda and I got to spend 10 wonderful days in the place I love the best. Jason, Sharon, Shelley, and Paul got to come down and share the July 4th stuff with us. The parade and then the fireworks and a little Ten Toes Up action. They left Sunday then two of our Mooresville neighbors got to come down. Their first time at Pawleys and they fell in love with it, but of course who would not. I got to spend 10 days with my Pawleys friends and do things with them. Ned took us out to play golf and it was the first time I played golf in 9 years. I was rather pleased at how well I hit the ball. Cinda and I had a few days to just hang out on the beach by ourself. Got to spent time with her talking about our wish list and other dreams we had. Funny to find out that we both share the same dream and that is to move back to Pawleys Island. We just really miss our friends = Matt & DeAnna, Steve & Steve, Mickey, Os, Ned & Carol, Myria & Andy, bartender Bill, Hector & Anna, and all the other gang that hangs out at the Street. The bottom line is the beach is nice but the friends are nicer. We dont have that in Mooresville because everyone here seams to have their own agenda, kids, ball games, planting bushes, digging holes,, planting gardens, but never time to just hang out have a beer and shoot the shit. The ironic things is, the house that Cinda and I rented at PI is for sale. I offered the bitch $185000 for the house and she would not take it. Now she has it for sale for $175,000. Wish I could buy the thing but I have this anchor around my next in Mooresville. To be honest, I think the best thing to do it is just rent and never buy. That way you can move when you get ready. Now we are back safe and sound and wondering what is next. I prayed to God last night (as I have 100,000 times) to show me the reason Im here in this town and still dont have my answer. Carzy aint it

The Parents Influence

Anyone who reads this as a parent, please dont under estimate the influence you have over your childrens behavior for the rest of their life. When I was a kid of only 6 til I got to be 18 and moved out of the house I got told, what you want does not matter, that is stupid, you dont know anything, you just think your important, if it was not for you I would have done other things in my life but it is my responsibility to provide you a home. Now how would you like to have come up with those comments from parents who got married when they were 17 and 14. Never went to school and just worked in a factory until they retired? Not taking anything away from them, because they are my parents and I love them, but who was really the stupid ones in this situation? Now to this day at age 55, Im still stupid, What I wanted in life is not important, and a new one - you think your so smart just because you have been to College and your a Plant Manager. When I get around them I see how they turn negative and bitter. Somewhere down the road of life I have done something that they think I should not have done or I just dont show them appreciation like I should. Yes I rebelled against this type of treatment when I was coming up, who would not, but the way this influenced me has still profound affects today at age 55.

When I first got married I did not know how to show affection to Cinda because for 19 years I had put up the steel guard to protect myself and my feelings. When anyone who disagree with me, up went that wall and I would shut down. Now try being a newlywed and establishing a home with a wonderful wife and she gets that treatment. It would happen before I knew it and it took her love and years of it to help me through this, but I thank God for her.

At work I would bust my ass to try to please the management and as usual when they would disagree with me or show disappointment I would fly all to hell and take it personal. I had to work through that also.

My point is, please be careful what you say or do when you have those children. God gives us the promise that for everything bad that happens to us, He can take it and make something positive out of it if we let Him. This past month at my son's wedding he gave me a card and on this card it said, "if Im half as good a husband to Sharon as you were a dad to me then everything will be great in our life". When I read that card I just busted into tears and almost have now typing this blog. As a result of my raising I gave my children an opinion, I gave them the option to make mistakes and not call them stupid but stand behind them and help them. I did everything I could to spend time with them at ball games, camps, band concerts, cheerleading practice and what ever else they decide to do. I told them both to dream and follow those dreams. Who knows, you might be the next famous person but you would never know if you dont give it shot. At the same time I had rules and guidelines and they followed those also.

Just love your kids and even when they are 55 still love and support them and never make them feel like they owe it you. That card was all the payment I needed for all those year and pleasure my children have given me. They are truely a blessing.

The Bachelor's Party Again

Well, I hit the wrong damn key and dont know how to delete it, but lets try this again. We went to Pawleys Island for Jason's Bachelor Party weekend. Man was it fun and it sure was nice to get to hang out there. About 12 of his buddy's came down for it and Matt, Os, Steve, Jay, Courtney, Fred, and Ned from Pawleys particpated also. What ment the most to me was #1, being the Best Man in the wedding so I got to go, #2, my son feels totally comfortable with me being around his friends in that type of atmosphere, #3, my buds from Pawleys wanting to particpate in it as well. Matt brought over 6 bottles of various liquors for all of us and even spent 2 nights in the condo on the sofa bed. Now it is nice having friends like that !!!! As usual we drank to much and did not sleep enough, but hell it is Pawleys Island and my son only gets married once (at least on my ticket). You would never find anything like that up here in Mooresville, NC. We get to go back during the week of July 4th and I am so ready for that. All of the guys who came down from Charlotte and Atlanta said to me, "NOW I KNOW WHY YOU TALK SO MUCH ABOUT PAWLEYS ISLAND & THE PEOPLE HERE" they fell in love with it just as I have. They were not as impressed with Easy Street as I had built it up but thats because there was no young girls hanging out there. They liked the bar and the especially Heather, but they wanted more female action and it is not like it was in the old days. We went to the Hot Fish Club and that place was full of their desires. At my age 6 beers and a 30 year old would put me back in MUSC @ Charleston again. Be as usual all things had to come to an end and Im back here wasting my days away and bored out of my freaking mind. Ok lets dont spoil the blog with all that BS.

The Bachelor's Party

The Bachelor's Party

Boring Boring Boring

Well, I read Ashely's blog and this makes me realize that my job is boring, my life is boring, and my world is boring. I see these old retired people in my neighborhood walking about and sitting in the driveway and they get up and do the same thing again the next day. Is this what it is coming too? I hate my job because it is so boring I really just sit here all day long and do nothing. My VP does it all and if I do anything I have to ask him, so I chose not to do anything. I have no objectives, no performance appraisal and thus I can not do the same to my guys. Have you ever just woke up went into work and watch paint dry? I go to the gym and there I have a social life where I can actually talk to someone. That's what keeps me going back to the place. I go home and either Cinda is on the computer with work, traveling with work, or working at Carollon in the afternoons. No, I do not see the money or her that much. I'm going to Pawley's for son's bachelor party, but she cant go because she will be in Atlanta for a conference and will not get back in time. With her doing this it makes my social life very limited and thus you loose contact with friends and thus it makes life even more boring. I am a prime candidate for an affair but I to fucking old to even think about it now. Why would I want to give up all my $$$$ just to get another old skin sack of problems?

I read Ashely's blog and I know she thinks there is no time for herself but that is really a blessing. Beats the hell out of what I have to do. Why in hell do you think a 55 year old man sits here blogging into internet outer space. Just venting feelings and then I will go home and do what I do best, Drink Alone. When I lived at Pawleys I could escape it by going to the Street. There you always had some kind of drama going on and of course beer to wash it all down with. I would go back, but I have this $350,000 anchor hanging around my neck and I can not cut the chain. Thanks to this economy you can not give shit away much less sale it.

Ok now that I have depressed the hell out of myself and nothing has changed lets go to the gym and do some chest and triceps. Have a good weekend self

No Pain No Gain

The Darlington trip went well and made it back Sunday before lunch. I am still tired and need to rest some more before I start my usual things. Everything happen that usually happens. Steve McNelly got drunk, eat all our hotdogs, and broke my 24 chair all to hell (that Jay gave Me) Kyle got drunk and sprayed ketchup all over the coolers and fell and broke the fold out flap on Jasons grill. Dont mind getting drunk and what I have is yours but be responsible and respectful or pay the consequences which they dont. Jay fell down several times that night and when I saw him Saturday mornign he looked like he had been in a dog fight. Poor fellow is just about past going on those legs of his. I really hate to see that and hope he gets more mobil. At least McNelly takes good care of Jay. Matt was the only one with any sense. Before going out Friday night he locked up all his stuff and told me to do the same but I did not. Next time I will because why is it Steve always breaks stuff but never his stuff? Jason got lost coming out of the track and was pissed at me because he got lost. All in all it was a great trip with great people and cant wait to go again. DeAnna and Myriah made it there about 12:00 Saturday. Was good seeing them again and that strawberry short cake DeAnna made hit the spot. I was soooooooo full that I felt like I was going to explode. Got a surprise in the fact that Os came on this trip. Was really glad to see him.

Aint It Amazing

Aint it amazing that no matter how much we get put down by things from day to day whether it is job or home, we always have something to look forward to. Im really looking forward to this coming weekend at Darlington with my buds from Pawleys. We have Jay, Steve, Matt, JBall, Kyle and even DeAnna is coming down for the race. I cant wait to see those assholes because I just love them to death. My son is getting to go and I really love that he is going. Bought myself a brand new Confederate Flag to fly while we are there and anyone who dont like it can just kiss my non tree hugging, non politically correct, white ass !!! Im pround to be white and dont give a damn who thinks that is racist. Ok, get back on focus now and stop the ranting LOL. We will get there Friday and come back Sunday. While there we will go to The V, once Daddy O's and Shuckers to eat. It just amazes me how I like being with these guys and when Im at my house in Mooresville my neighbors make me so uptight that I hate living there. Yankees are not easy to live around and we have one who wears ear muffs, eye goggles, and dust mask when he cuts his grass, of course he is from Washington State. He says Im the biggest redneck that he has ever met, but his wife calls me a real man. I told her that he was a pussy and needs to man up. (Matt Eddy Term).

Anyways, Im going home this weekend and see my normal people. Cant wait and Im looking forward to it so much, Im counting down the hours.

The Bar

I found THE BAR this weekend while out riding around with some friends on the boat. It is called Lake Norman Bar and Grill (bet that was a surprise). The place is at Slanting Bridge on the water. The top half is called Lake Norman Motel. When I was a kid the bar was not there but the motel was. It was one of those places you could rent by the day or hour. It had a boat ramp and downstairs was just place for bait, beer, and gas. Well, someone has come in and cleaned the place up and the bar is like the one in Murrels Inlet. It has elevated decks and the bar area has the grass hut deal. They have live bands on Friday and Saturday and the atmosphere is just great. I told Cinda and she is ready to go. The food was great also! It has that small bar feeling and when you order a drink they say thank you honey (I just love that). Cant wait to share the place with some of my Pawleys buddies. Only problem about the place is, it is about 12 miles by land from my house and about 10 by water. Thing I hate about going out here is you have to drive so far to get anywhere and the DUI man is always around. Now I have 3 places to go that I like, but need my Pawleys dudes and dudetts to be here to go with me. They had one house boat tied to the dock and she was flying the Stars and Bars baby. Me and the Giddy Up Cowboy would be right at home here.

Easter

Well it is time again for all the little kids to hunt easter eggs and for mama and daddy to get all dressed up. Im going to spend my easter fishing, drinking beer, mowing grass, drinking beer, putting up lattice and did I mention drinking beer. I love it when I lived at Pawleys because it usually mark the start of the every weekend trips to the beach, sitting in the sun, talking shit, playing horse shoes, and did I mention drinking beer. Man I miss those days and those people. I think the fellowship is what I miss the most. I loved Matt, DeAnnna, Steve, Mickey, Os, Y'vonne, Ned, Carol, Courtney, Marnee, Fred, and Ashely. Lets dont forget Domino, Killer, and Boomer. There were many others but they just come and go and some stick and some dont, but over all they are all really great people. Now at Honeysuckle Creek I got Killer and me and thats about it. Cinda is always doing her thing and when i was at Pawleys I did not give a shit because I always had a place to go and people to talk with, but not here. I have learned to talk to dogs and myself. Then I get on the phone and start texting and now my text messages are more than my phone minutes. Why do you think a 55 year old fart is on the computer blogging and facebooking? It is because he is bored stiff and lonely for something or someone to communicate with. The Beatles had wrote my song in 1967, He's A Real NoWhere Man, Sitting In His NoWhere Land

NATIONAL CHAMPIONS 2009

The Heels did it. Does not matter what all the media was trying to do and say to hype Michigan State, the reality of things is, North Carolina Tarheels is a superior program. Every game they won in the NCCA Tourney was by double figures. They come out and took control and kicked the living shit out of them. No news media, you can control elections, you can control popular opinion, but you can not control the outcome of a game. So just go admit it, Big East and Big Ten suck and the south ACC rules the round ball.

The Day of Nerves

Well it is getting closer and closer to the NCAA National Championship game with Michigan State and UNC. UNC should walk over these guys but you never know what can happen. I have people I know(once called friends but not anymore) that are all about this now. There teams got beat and now they have expanded their field to, "The Big Ten". Thats the sure sign of a real loser, like I would pull for Duke or NC State just because they are in the ACC. To me you might as well call yourself chicken shit when you do that, but these damn Yankees are so different it is all about the north beating the south in whatever they do. I thought that war was over 142 years ago, but they still obsessed with winning. The SEC hands them their ass every year in football and the ACC does the same in basketball and yet we still have people like Andy thinking that Indiana is the best thing since sliced loaf bread. I am so thankful to be white and a southern boy. God really blessed me when I was born with that. Not saying that all Yankees are bad, but usually a toliet full of turds smell the same when they get stirred up and these do!! Ok enough of my yankee bashing, but it was fun !! All I got to say is LETS GO HEELS !!!

HEELS ON A ROLL

Went down to Jason and Sharon's house this past Friday to watch the Tarheels play ball. Ended up spending the night because after the victory we were all just to wasted. Got into the Moonshine and man the stuff will kick your ass. I laied low Saturday and Sunday and did not want to even smell beer or liquor. We had a good time as usual and Cinda had to stay at home because she was on call with her job. She must love that job because it demands alot of her time, but coming from a guy who hates waking up in the mornings, I had rather be in her shoes. We have two more games and hope we can pull it off. Got a free ticket to the 600 at Lowes this past week from a vendor of ours. Did not think I was going to get to go but when it is free it is for me. Going to have a Finial Four Party at Jasons this weekend, so here we go again. I am so glad that Jason is a alumni from UNC, because to see him have something to be that excited about is awesome. Sort of like Lady D and her Auburn Tigers. For those of us who did not go to school at one of those place it is just not the same as having vested interest in it.

We are still on 32 hour weeks at work and with all the time to go to Pawleys I dont have the $$$ to go. It is hitting me for about $1100 a month by not working on Fridays. Hope this turns around soon, but it is hell of alot better than unemployment.

Bad Personnel

I guess I can be negative on my post since no one reads it but me and Ashley, but what do you do with a person who has tried you so much and yet you can not control it. Let me give you an example.

I have a supervisor who has been here 20+ years. This person will live forever because God or the devil does not want him. He has been working for my President that who time and he knows how he is but the President of our company refuses to let me deal with the issue. There has been 4 HR managers before my time tell the Pres the same thing, "HE HAS TO GO". I have went with documentation after documentation to the Pres and all I get is, have a talk with him. He will get better for about a week then back to the same old shit. I have reached the point where I do not communicate with him unless I have to. When you try to have a conversation with him it is always negative. Have a meeting to try to improve something and he is always destructive. Everyone hates dealing with him and is wondering why I cant fire him, but they all know the President will not let me. I wake up every morning and thinking about coming in here facing him and his destruction just turns my stomach where I do not even want to eat breakfast.

Now tell me, I have to have a job, right now there is no where to go, I have to have my medical insurance, and I have spent hours on hours talking to God about this and yet it all stays the same. It aint worth me quitting my job and putting that stress on Cinda about the $$$$. What would you do to deal with this situation? I lift weights. spin, and race on the computer, but every morning I have to wake up and this is the first thing that runs through my brain !!!!!

Rain

All it did this weekend was rain rain rain and more rain. Guess this is good for the spring flowers but with the temps in the lower 40's it was not good for much of anything else. Usually back in my day I would go fishing on these days like this. Low pressure and no one on the lake made for some good times, but just dont have that killer instinct in me anymore like that. Came out for the best at home because I mopped, waxed, cleaned base boards, got cobwebs, dusted the ceiling fans, washed a load of clothes and cleaned the bathrooms. I also managed to drink 10 mini's of Jim Beam. Other than that I was at the house by myself while my (dont know whats happening) neighbors sit at home. One thing I like about Pawleys, always had the Street to go to on those bad days. There you could always get somekind of conversation reguardless of what kind it was still humans trying to communicate. All the people I know cant do anything because they are to busy being busy. Ever knew anyone like that? Cinda's dads birthday party was this weekend and Cinda and her mom threw him a surprise party at the Tally House. It was alot of good country eating but thats all. It was more like a Baptist convention instead of a party. He is a really good person and has always treated me very well even if I did rob his daughter at the age of 18. She just had to have me and she could not stand it LOL LOL. Now Im back at work on Monday bored out of my head but at least Im getting a paycheck with benefits.

Good Time

The weekend was a pretty good time. Went fishing Friday and caught a few largemouth then came home and cleaned up that dirty truck from the snow and ice we had this past week. Went to Jason and Sharon's house Sunday to watch the UNC - Dook game. That was alot of fun and all his friends are some really good kids. Shelley and Paul came also. I really like that dude, he is one of the best guys Shelley has ever dated. He is well grounded and keeps her little wild ass in line. I cant figure out for the life in me who's kid she is? Shelley is hard to read about her emotions and feelings because she is always smiling. Glad to have the situation where they want to share time with their mom and me with their friends.

? Thankfulness ?

Has anyone ever looked around and seen all the things you have to be so thankful for? Survived a heart attack, Jason's up coming marriage, Shelley's job and her making it on her own, still have a job, able to make our bills on time, and got a wife that loves my sorry ass, but with all this you still have one of those empty holes inside that you cant find the answer to. Ever feel like that and thus it robs you of all the other things that should be shining bright in your life? I have felt that way since I moved back to Mooresville area and cant seem to shake it. I said in time it will go away but it doesnt. Been 3 years now and with ever day it just digs deeper and deeper. I know you have heard me say this a 1000 times, but when I lived at Pawleys I was at peace with myself inside. Im told if you seek the answer form God it will be revealed to you, but it isnt. I hear if you seek Gods will then you will have a peace, but what is that will He has for my life? When Im smelling that salt air I am a peace about me that I cant explain. I dont feel lonely down there even if Im just walking on the beach with Killer. I hate to complain and bitch because there is alot of people out there who would love to have what I have and the security of a income, but that darn feeling will just not go away.

The New House

Got to go to Jason and Sharon's new house this past Saturday. It is wonderful seeing your children be successful in life and have accomplishments. The thing I still try to drive home is not how much you have, but how happy you are with what you have. Got to hang out and watch the damn Tarheels play ball. Love there new house !! It is in a great area and the neighborhood is very well kept. I think it is great that Jason and Sharon found each other because they are so much alike. Sharon has some fire in her and will not put up with any shit. Her marrying a Roland it is good she is like that, because us Roland's are full of shit. Sunday got to go see Shelley at her second job at Vinnies. One thing I will say for that girl is, she will work. Teaching school Monday - Friday and then working at Vinnies aint easy. Wish she had it easier but if she did she would be like the rest of these young air heads that dont appreciate anything. She will make some young man a good wife one day, because she is stable and values life. When I read Ashley's blog and look at Jordon I can look back and remember all those days and were we are at now. All the stuff we worry about is just a waste of time because if you have a good home for them it all works out. Very pround of my two offsprings. They are very good kids and I hope everyone is this lucky to have kids like them.

What a Day in North Carolina

The day at work was hell. Everything was wrong and why did I let it happen try day. When it gets like that only thing you can say is, "yes sir your right and I will handle it" and then just move on.

Got the whole family a place to stay at Pawleys during the week of July 4th. This means we can have Jason, Sharon, Shelley, Paul, Shenna, ? and Cinda and I under the same roof. I love staying with Matt and DeAnna, but I would not throw all that on them at one time. If I did that I might have to sleep with Matt and DeAnna and she can sleep between Matt and Me. LOL If I had to do that I would wear my steel jock strap so I would not wake up with anything missing.

Second good thing is, after hours of Jason and Sharon going in and out of panic, THEY GET TO CLOSE ON THEIR HOUSE TODAY!!! Im really happy for them and glad to see them doing things the right way.

Now the 3rd thing that is going to make me happy is, I stopped at the store during lunch and I have 10 mini's of Jim Beam in the truck and I might just drink 3 of them tonight. I know after the weekend at Pawleys I said I was not going to drink for another month, but we are in a recession and I dont want anyone unemployed because I would not drink. LOL

only other thing I have to say is, "sure wish I lived at Pawleys again" Im so damn sick and tired of these damn wierd ass people up here. Sad thing is, they are not from North Carolina. They just dont know how to relax and enjoy the moment like my SC people. It is the simple things that make one happy, not swimming pools, boats, houses and all that other BS. Oh Well, it is what it is and it going to change until this economy turns. As soon as it does my ASS is out of here.

Back To Boresville

Had a great time at Pawleys this weekend. Of course, I drank to much and stayed out to late but thats what it is about. Taxi DeAnna took care of us and made sure we did not get into any trouble. Os came out and spent some time with us. He is looking really good and has lost about 40 pounds. He is so funny holding his chest when the laughs. McNelley is Steve and still the same. He is doing good and still dating Mickey (which is good for him). She is his grounding force that keeps him from getting killed. Jay was the one that Im worried about !! He is not doing very well with his health. Before I left him Sunday I gave him a hug and told him that I love him. Sure hope he improves from where he is now. Matt is doing good and that DeAnna was the one who surprised me. I did not want to say anything when I first saw her, but that girl has lost alot of weight. She is looking good and younger. Sort of motivates me to take off about 20 pounds. Always good to be back to my house with Cinda and Killer, but I sure wish it was down there instead of here. No need to sit here and cry about it, it is what it is for right now. It will take me till about Thursday to get this out of my system.

Oh yes, I forget to mention that Matt had about 10 Georgetown Cops surrounding him inside Easy on Saturday. Those guys were casing out the Street with about 4 unmarked cars and every time they would pass by Matt was kind enough to just wave at them and they sort of got pissed. Told Matt that he was not to stand in front of the door and to keep his mouth shut or they were going to arrest him. Of course they had no right to do that, they were just trying to provoke Matt which Mr Cool did not do anything. Always excitment !!

Headed Home

Be going down to my home in my heart Friday morning. Cant wait to have Elly and Baily jump on me and give me some of them good old dog sugars. Get to sit around with my bud Matt and drink me a big Beam and Diet Coke while we catch up on the happenings. Then Im going to take a short ride over to Big Os and check out his railroad track on his chest. Once his Os Hair Sweater grows back you will never see the scar. Might take him a can of tuna fish and some salt free crackers as a present. Then after all that it will be to the Street to see all the happy hour people such as Jay, Mary, Doug, and Ned. Then we will probably head to Habanors for supper and shoot the bull with Bill and eat something hot as hell just to prove we can then back to Easy Street where Matt and I will close the thing down. DeAnna is always a good sport and takes care of Matt and me because she knows we dont have enough sense to get out of the rain when we start drinking. I will probably need to slide out somewhere Saturday so Matt can do the Valentines thing. That should take about 2 minutes LOL LOL. Then Sunday it will be Daytona 500 party at the Easy Street. Think Im excited about going back?? I love that place and the people there. They are all sort of disfunctional but what the hell, SO AM I !!! Just two more days and Im out of here.

Good Old Economy

Had meetings yesterday to tell people that they were getting layed off or their hours cut. All salary personnel including me can take vacation days on Fridays or have their pay cut that one day. It hurts watching people wonder what they are going to do when you tell them this news. I think that Congress, Senate, and Oval Office should have to work one year for free and give the salary back to the US debt. People work all their lives to end up broke at time to retire. I hate posting this try information because it is so negative, but thats all my world is now. Since I have off every Friday now I think Im going to Pawleys on Thursdays and stay till Sunday nights. Matt and DeAnna can claim me as a tax deduction in 09. Applied for two jobs in that area yesterday, but Im sure Im one out of 10,000 but someone has to get it. Cinda can live anywhere in the US with her job so Im ready to move back to the low country. I need me some fire ant and blue gums. Getting sick of all these know it all Yankees here. Planning on going to Bartending school this month and get trained, then see if I can get me a job slinging beer on the weekends somewhere. I always liked doing that type of thing just to meet the people.

Back To Pawleys

I have two more weeks and then I'm making a road trip to Pawley's to share the Daytona 500 race with my buds at Easy Street. Counting the days that I get to go back and smell that old cigarette smoke stain walls and sour trash cans with empty beer bottles. Listen to Jay scream across the bar at how fine some girls ass is. Get to go see Os and look at his road map on his chest. Get to listen to Andy and his know it all take on sports and get my usual hug from crazy Mary.

For now it is home for the weekend. Sit at the house and drink Jim Beam and look at TV. Need to get excited about something but cant find out what it is. Might go fishing Sunday since the temp is suppose to be 59.

Is Everyone like Me?

I hope that no one is like me. Why am I here in Mooresville living a life that I hate and dont want. I am suppose to be Plant Manager but I can do my job because the President wants to do it all, so I let him. I was looking at real estate on the web of Pawleys Island and I wanted to cry when looking at this. I am I wasting my life away here. I have no satisfaction of worth, no purpose or reason to come to work. I had might as well be in prison somewhere than to be doing this. I think it is time to try to sale a house and get the hell out of here. I am willing to go by myself if I had to because this is no reason for being. I want to go back home to Pawleys

Speech of Change

I went home today at lunch just to hear the speech. All I heard was, we need to sacrifice, be humble, and have humility. America will march forward and prevail. Thats all good but what about humans being accountable and responsible for their actions and suffering the consequences of their actions. Look how much this nation spends per year on DSS just because you have idiots that don't have enough intelligence to put a condom on their prick before having sex, thus "whos the baby's daddy". I have yet to get any DSS money for my children, all I did was get up go to work, stay married to the mother, and make a home for them. I was not in the streets banging up 3 other chicks. Look at all the money going to prisons to house people who have broken the laws. Look at all the $$ spent court systems, police, and lawyers to try to protect the damn criminal. Some where someone is going to have to stand up and enough of this shit and fry their ass. Dead men dont repeat crimes. Until our society stops making excuses for these people and starts holding them accountable for their actions it is only going to get worst. There are no free lunches

Why not Pawleys

The happiest I have been in my 50 something years of living is when I lived at Pawleys Island. Besides living at the beach the people were so warm and wonderful. They all accepted people for who they were and there were no games played, because we all enjoyed living and did not care about position or status. Remember the first time I met Jay. A very smart guy but rough around the edges. This guy has a masters in education and was a Rugby player. He can paint and is very good at it, but like so many people of my generation he said the hell with all the pretending. You have to respect the dude. Then one day walking across the causeway I met Os and Steve. Come to find out they were both very good friends and both were childhood buddies in Ohio. Os was one on the most likeable guys you will ever meet. He is so layed back and enjoys people and living. His heart is as big as he is. Steve is a brillant engineer with a company and works hard. He still has some of the Joe College left in him, but he is a good friend that likes just being Steve. Sometimes you want to kill him while your hugging him, if that makes any sense. While getting to know Os and Steve I met this girl named Ashley. Highly energetic individual who love to fish, hunt, shoot pool and drink !! She was a very hard worker who took her job very serious. She was also like the others, very friendly and once you knew her you just love the mystery about her that everyone could see. Shortly after that I met a couple by the name of Matt and DeAnna. Those guys warmed up to my wife like they knew her forever. I truly love those two people like my own. They are so much like me or should I say our personalities are just about identical. I love joking with DeAnna and watching her, but you have to know when to do this because if you dont you might get your head handed to you, but you have to love her. Mr. Matt is like me. We are the Giddy Up Cowboys and when we get together watch out Easy Street. The staff I met at the local watering hole are wonderful. We have Marie, Blaze, Travis, Church, Marny, and of course Murphy. As Toby Keith said so well, "I love this Bar". Lets dont for get TEN TOES UP! Love those guys and still see them play in this area. There are so many others such at TP, Stanley, Terry, Thor, and Ned. If you ever meet all my buddy's at Pawleys you will love them the same I do and wonder why in the hell you had to leave. Sometimes life is not fair and what you have to do is not fun, but in my heart there will always be Pawleys Island

Sick of Equality

I wonder how in the world we can have total equality when so much celebration is made about Obama and Martin Luther King and their race. Im all from equality but it is like fair trade, it goes both ways. I can have black TV and Black Miss America but if I insist on equal time Im called a racist. How does 17% of the total population tell 83% what they can and can not do or say. I think we to this day do not have equality, but it is now in the reverse form. Im not a racist, I just believe in TRUE EQUALITY